Winter Is Coming…

And oh what a wonderful Glow…
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Since we’re speaking of Glow Ups in just 8 days, Lord willing, I will turn 27 on the 27th. A few people have asked me what I want for my birthday and can I be honest. I’m constantly trying to figure out what the Lord wants for my life, and how to be obedient and accepting of His will. That will always be first on the list, but I have to admit there are some things I do want. I know that the Lord knows the desires of my heart but my desires are not always things I need. And the Lord will always provide me with with what I need. I’m just being real about some of the things I would like to experience in my lovely twenty seventh year.

  • To have both of my personal businesses come to fruition. I truly believe they will serve so many individuals, spread love into the lives of others, unite strengthen the community. Which leads me to getting a clearer vision on the third venture that ties them altogether.
  • REAL SELF LOVE. Like when the lights are out and its only me left in the room with all of my past experiences, current pitfalls and successes, and future aspirations. Love the woman I am in my deep chocolate entirety. All my scars, physical and mental, rejuvenated cells, kinky coils, soft buttery brown skin, resilient heels, and strong ego but also fragile at the same time.
  • Clarity, clarity, clarity, crystal clear dear! Granted I am aware that I will never have all of the answers but I still would like to work toward being more aware and focused on what I want. A clear understanding of my purpose or simply the gift to listen to what Lord is telling me. I am sure he speaks but am I actually being still or quiet enough to hear when he speaks to me? I want that. Alladat.
  • A true romantic companion. When I say true, I mean something like I have yet to experience. I want a DEEP connection, like ya girl is talking unfathomable. Playful to passionate debates occur, and in the midst of all the words there is a tranquil quietness. A type of connection where there is peace in the moments of silence. I want his skin to end where mines begin, and no not sexually but we’re simply a genuine extension of one another because we care and WORK to make each other elevated. Yes, I appreciate and love all of my friends and family, but that male/female partnership, I believe, is crucial to healthy living especially when their is a state intimacy that is multifaceted.

These are just a few things that I want. But what do I know?


What Is Holy Is Never Hurried.

“What is Holy is never hurried” is a such a relevant theory. It applies to so many aspects of life when you really think about it.

Impatience reveals a lack of contentment which is a slippery slope to ungratefulness. What came to mind was an immediately thought about how I am not where I want to be in many aspects of my life such as personal growth, spiritually, career wise, romantically, physically, etc. Then it hit me. If I am constantly thinking of the future or where I want to be I am causing myself to  miss out on digesting the real time experience that is being gifted to me as I make my way along the path that is unique to me.  If I am constantly rushing to the next phase then I’m robbing myself the opportunity to absorb and appreciate my journey in its entirety. Yikes so here I am forced to admit that I am not satisfied with my present which makes me ponder… Am I truly thankful for my now if I am trying to hurry the process? I think not.

Contentment does not mean you lack ambition. It crossed my mind, so I have to be mindful not to confuse  a state of contentment with lack of progression. To be content, for me, simply means to be happy and appreciative of your current self in all areas. “Peace, be still” said The Lord, which doesn’t mean that you aren’t moving but just that you are making moves in a peaceful manner, which also allows you to reflect and understand your experiences through a clearer lens. I find that if I am always trying to hurry through what life throughs my I rarely give myself time to reflect on my reflection. So often times I have to slow it down, mull over my what has happened to me, how I am affected, who I truly am which assists me in becoming more aware on how to make progressive decisions that best fit my needs.

There is no need to rush what is God Led. If you believe in The Lord, you know his timing is perfect, right? So it’s kind of insane to be impatient. When I rush things I end up torturing myself mentally by thinking of all the various outcomes, going through the motions of decisions that I have no control over or if I do have control over something I mentally put myself through the ringer because I mentally reject something I physically committed to. All of it is exhausting, and quite unnecessary. Also if I rush into something physically it’s usually results in failure. Then there’s that famous quote some of us know so well “Piss poor preparation, promotes piss poor performance, piss poor performance promotes pain” which clearly leads back to mental torture because now I beat myself up mentally for the aftermath of my inability to be patient, and respect God’s timing.

When I think about the fruits of The Spirit, love, kindness, self discipline, and patience come to mind but I also think about an actual fruit. The earthly process of producing fruit is not a swift one so how can I expect anything that is Holy in my life to be quick, fast, and in a  hurry?!

But what do I know? These are just my thoughts.



I’ve been away…

Yes, I have been away. For the past two months I haven’t posted. Every time I thought i wanted to post it just didn’t feel right. But I feel that changing soon. I have a lot on my mind and I am just organizing my thoughts. Let me tell you this though God continues to bless, protect, and care for me each day he allows me to continue to inhabit this planet. I will share these nuggets before I go.

  • I love the Lord and lift his name up HIGH because he is too good to me, even in the darkness he is my light, and my way out.
  • I love myself. Some days I don’t love me enough. But I must remember that Jesus paid the ultimate price so that I may be saved, I am his and I must take care of my body, mind, and spirit…
  • I Love my people, ALL of them. I am not my brother or sisters keeper. I AM my brother and sister. We are one. If you are weak I am weak, if you are broken I am broken, If you are caged I am trapped too, But if you are strong I am strong, if you are healed I am healed, if you are loved I am loved. We are a unit. We are the same.
  • Love is STRONG, and cannot be beat. So if you are operating outside of love, honey, I pray for you.

I’m Listening, Assata Shakur

“this is the 21st century and we need to redefine r/evolution. this planet needs a people’s r/evolution. a humanist r/evolution. r/evolution is not about bloodshed or about going to the mountains and fighting. we will fight if we are forced to but the fundamental goal of r/evolution must be peace.

we need a r/evolution of the mind. we need a r/evolution of the heart. we need a r/evolution of the spirit. the power of the people is stronger than any weapon. a people’s r/evolution can’t be stopped. we need to be weapons of mass construction. weapons of mass love. it’s not enough just to change the system. we need to change ourselves. we have got to make this world user friendly. user friendly.

are you ready to sacrifice to end world hunger. to sacrifice to end colonialism. to end neo-colonialism. to end racism. to end sexism.

r/evolution means the end of exploitation. r/evolution means respecting people from other cultures. r/evolution is creative.

r/evolution means treating your mate as a friend and an equal. r/evolution is sexy.

r/evolution means respecting and learning from your children. r/evolution is beautiful.

r/evolution means protecting the people. the plants. the animals. the air. the water. r/evolution means saving this planet.

r/evolution is love.”

-Assata Shakur

Quick thought, lil prayer.

The greatest gift we can give the Lord is ourselves. He thinks so highly of us that if we could give him anything…ANYTHING…all he would ask for is our obedient presence. I think that is just so amazing. We always fall short, and will never be deserving of his grace and mercy, but every day he chooses us. His love for us surpasses our own understanding. Everyday breath is provided, life is gifted, choice is granted, forgiveness is given, mercy is shown, an  unique path is laid out just for you.

Though my path may be rocky, joy remains in my heart and I find great comfort in knowing that the love of the Lord fuels my steps, and lights my path. I pray that my soul is filled with the holy spirit. May I never neglect him and continue to seek the Lord as he so graciously allows me to move forward under the sun. I pray my witness leads others to the Lord, and through my actions they grow to know the love of Christ. There will be moments where I stumble, but thank GOD that his love will continue to edify and carry me forward. What a wonderful Shepard indeed. Hallelujah!

Colossians 3:23-24 “Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the LORD, not for human masters, since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the LORD as a reward. It is the LORD Christ you are serving.”


Kill This Cup, Not My Vibe…

…Said the girl who doesn’t drink alcohol.

But seriously, energy is so imperative. Nowadays it feels like more people are concerned with energy as entity that fuels their cell phones rather something that encourages their body, spirit, and connection with others. As humans we automatically emit energy into the world. Whether we are conscious of it or not we are putting out vibes into the atmosphere every single second of the day. Natural energy is what nourishes our relationships with others, which is phenomenal.

One of the greatest feelings in this world is genuinely being on the same wavelength with another individual. High key, which is why I live for the moments where I am totally aligned with another being. Like to live in a world where everyone is uniquely distinct, no two journey’s are the same, and people somehow become parallel…How astonishing is that?  That’s some major ass leveling up.

It’s amazing that there’s no one formula to accomplishing that electric feel. For me its really about being able to take off that mask, you know, the superficial front most of us put on for society. I loathe being surface level, and second to that if you’re putting off negative vibes you can bet that I’ll distance myself from you. Nothing fruitful comes from bad energy, and it’s exhausting to be around. I invite you to dive in with me, let’s get deep into our true selves. When you submerge yourself into a vulnerable state of saying ‘fuck yes’ to who you truly are nothing but positivity comes from that.

Being unapologetically true to the carbon copy that you are allows nothing but love to flourish…and let’s face it, with love only the greatest of vibes are possible.